I can’t really say why I do the things I do. What I do know is that I do what I feel like and what I see or think in my head. My mind is always filled with images and thoughts that I think are always there all day long sleeping in the back of my mind as more and more thoughts build up as the day continues until at night when I try to sleep they all awaken. My goals for creating artwork tend to change or maybe I just find new goals as old goals die off. Maybe my goal is to try and express and show the outside world what I see and think in my mind. I think most of my ideas and thoughts come subconsciously from my everyday life without me actually knowing right away until after I sketch my idea or think more about it as if I’m analyzing my own ideas. Usually before a painting or drawing but sometimes after, I create a story or a written piece that is about the painting or the painting is based on a quote of some sort. So far I only quote from writings I wrote myself as part of my personal goal to try and put images to all of my thoughts and stories I have wrote.
I don’t start anything until I at least partially know what I want to do. I then make small sketches to sometimes to try and explore my idea slightly more. The materials I select mainly depend on what I am making and how I want to show my finished work. Sometimes the materials also depend on my theme as well as the ideas behind the theme. The types of media also depend on what I try to create. My main types of media are digital and traditional. Most of my themes tend to revolve around darker thoughts that range from death and dying to sadness and melancholy but sometimes in an eerie calming way as though it’s alright to die or feel sadness but often an indirect way unless I feel the need to be more direct in showing. I suppose I have an odd fascination with death and sadness. I think it was there from childhood but awaken from the course of certain life events as my life progressed. I guess I tend to see the darker gloomy side of life as if my subconscious is secretly looking for it.
My current work mostly tends to revolve around the human psyche and is in some way the view of the person’s inner monster through form and action and how their personalities can be in some way disillusioning hens the title of my series “Creatures of Dismay” it ranges from being controlled to worldly destruction through the eyes of the observer. It consists of 8 pieces (7 paintings and 1 sculpture) the sculpture is the “observer” who sees all and is affected by all that surrounds him.